If you don’t follow me on social media you may not have known about the updates happening in my life over the last 6 months.
You may remember that I had a lump and was being tested for sarcoma. A rare cancer.
I went for an MRI scan a couple of weeks after the initial ultrasound as they were not sure what it might be.
I can confirm that the MRI (which was absolutely horrible) showed it was a fatty lump. I do not have cancer.
I really want to thank Em from Oh Gosh Blog for all her support and comfort during this time for me. Please check out her blog. She is amazing!
If you’re a long time follower you will know my mum had kidney failure and was on dialysis 4 times a week, waiting for a new kidney.
Unfortunately she didn’t get the transplant and her heart couldn’t cope so sadly, in November 2018, she passed away.
I’m not really ready to talk about it yet, it’s still really painful. I miss her so much and I am literally devastated.
I am grieving so differently from when my dad passed. I am ok a lot of the time but I cry every single day because I want to call her. I can’t describe the pain of losing your mum if you’re close and for it to happen as quick as it did. The grief is huge right now and I am just letting it run it’s course.
And of course, my wonderful wife has been a pillar of strength by my side. Literally couldn’t have done this without her.
Of course, this was a complete shock.
We have been talking about moving closer to my in-laws (they all live within 100 yards of each other) because, although only a mile away we want to be closer. We don’t want children but adore our nieces and nephews and my parent-in-laws are not getting younger.
Losing mum has made me want to be closer to them.
Where they live is primarily council houses so it’s very rare that properties come up so we thought we might look at any houses that come up.
With mum’s passing our financial situation has changed which means that we didn’t have to sell the house we live in now, which is Claire’s.
I am a first time buyer so when we saw a house in the area that was a perfect price we decided I would just go for it on my own…and apparently I am now adult enough to have a mortgage.
We have been accepted on a property and we have a mortgage agreement in principle so we just need to go for the full application.
Fingers crossed it all goes through!
I’m still loving my job. I have been here for 15 months now and I am happy here. But it is stressful.
Recently I have been having to meet deadlines with everything else that is going on and it’s putting a lot of stress on to me.
Apparently, now I am 38, stress goes to my lower back!
I never knew how debilitating back ache was till I had it.
Still stressed, working long long hours but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel so I’m not too worried.
There have been a lot of ups and downs the last 6 months and although I am a positive person on the whole I can honestly say I am struggling at the moment.
I know things will get better. I am a firm believer of looking forward and taking things a day at a time. Allowing myself to feel emotions, all of them and just making sure I listen to my own mind and what it might need.
If you do follow my blog keep an eye out on more moving blogs, setting up our new home etc.
I can’ wait to show you all what that looks like.
Is there anything you would like me to cover in future posts?
How has your last 6 months been?
Can you recommend any good home blogs in the UK?
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